Don’t you hate when you have a long
“to do” list and you have yet to cross something off it? I mean I have paintings, projects, and sketches dating back ’09. What’s up with that?
It’s like you want to cross them off but how? People are like oh just do it yadda yadda and all I keep asking myself is how?
I remember my first day of drawing 101 in college. I was surrounded by students who’ve been in art courses before. It was pretty much a brush up course for them or so it seemed (to me).
It was my first time drawing a live nude model. I looked around and asked myself now what? Placed my pencil on my newsprint and started scribbling lines here and there, look up at the model and back down on my paper. I’d peek at my neighbors paper and just think what the hell did I get myself into?I think I felt like that for the four years I was there. The insecurities were really intense.
It’s no wonder…
My advice to you all? Don’t let that be an excuse. After all you don’t know who’s glancing at your page thinking the same thing.
So… I decided to pull my easel outta the depths of nowhere (thanks to my gf) and started working on a painting I had pending.
I noticed immediately how impatient I was being since it didn’t look good. My gf told me not to cop out and that alone kept me focus.
I don’t want to be a cop out…
According to an astrology book I fall under the Aries/Taurus cusp. With that said, I’ve noticed a few cons that go along with this.
I never complete my projects
I’m lazy & possessive
Now, keep in mind I do have some positive traits but I’m focusing on the negative right now. I have so many ideas but my creative insecurities are getting the best of me. Pretty sure many artists have gone through this. I’m focussing too much on when the hell I’m going to get a breakthrough instead of practicing my art. How do I expect a breakthrough if I can’t even sit for more than two hours creating? GAH!!
So I decided to try out a new blog site and of course I’m lost
like always and my avi doesn’t want to load. WELCOME TO WORDPRESS LUX!!