5 months ago I was a total mess and now Im so very grateful that it happened.

As I slowly pick up the pieces, I must admit that this was one helluva grand ending to 2014.

New job, new place, and single. I feel like I’m on a different planet but it feels good to finally take some time for myself to reevaluate all thats happened. I realized that the universe did this because it was time, I was stagnant, I needed change and so it was time.

I was poisoned by bitterness, at one point I kinda felt sorry for myself. Now I know it was simply a lesson I needed to learn. Yes, there are times when I just want to lash out but its not worth it. For what?

Baby steps for me.

Regardless of what, I wish nothing but the best for her and I hope she finds the happiness she truly deserves.

You win some you lose some… We both won.

I’m so very excited for the new year and what’s to come. I’m excited for future challenges and welcome them with my arms opened wide and I hope each lesson brings me to some form of enlightenment…

Happy Holiday’s to you all and a very Happy New Year.

Go Fund Me

I created a GoFundMe page for my 11 year old Beagle named Bailey. I found out that he will need surgery to take care of a hernia he has. Please click follow the link below for more information.

http://www.gofundme.com/dlpmjk

Big Chop take 2

So yesterday I decided that it was time to cut my hair. I needed a new fresh start.

When my barber started clipping I immediately felt a weight lifting off my shoulders. As soon as he was done I was smiling from ear to ear and I haven’t been able to contain myself since.

I feel so good…

My confidence was boosted tremendously and I’ve had so many positive things happen within 24hrs.

My next goal is to move to the West Coast. It’s time this New York chick steps out of her comfort zone and explores a bit. Don’t you think?

Breakthrough time

I was hoping to adopt my precious little Egypt but unfortunately the timing isn’t right….( I wrote this about a week and a half ago)

Just this Saturday I took my 11 year old beagle for a vet checkup since his allergies flared up big time and found out he will need surgery to remove a hernia. The surgery costs an arm and a leg but it most be done.

Anything for my baby…

Funny how you make decisions about your future based on your gut feeling and then that feeling becomes reality.

Le Sigh

I was asked to model

wait whet?!

me?!

D’ahhhhh I’m flattered but me!? This totally inspired me to eat healthy and drop some weight.

Also my hair, I love my curls but I’m dying to just cut it off and start all over again.. Its kinda like my thing to do when major turn of events happen in my life. The thought of having short hair excites and scares me all at the same time. I need to find a barber that will style it exactly how I want it. I love my stylist, don’t get me wrong but she told me she refuses to cut my hair…

I’m sorry but this is my hair lady…..

No Makeup Challenge

So I decided to stop wearing makeup for a week to see how I feel. Let me just begin to tell you how difficult this challenge is. I’m so tempted to cover all of my imperfections every morning; waste of precious time and probably not the best for my skin.

I must say that I’m feeling very insecure but I have to get over this. Step 1 to a new life, cross those insecurities off your list.

Day three: No makeup challenge

Why is the 3 day of any challenge so difficult?! Gah

emotions

At this point my emotions are like a freaking all over the place. One day I’m super excited and ready to take life by the horns and then other days I just want to retreat into my shell and poke my head out every once in a while.

I never realized how hard this would be for me. Little hints here and there are just showing me that its done done….

Done
Done
Done

Sometimes you just gotta laugh….
Or not. *kanyeshrug*

Today was difficult for some reason.

Side Bar: My neighborhood is so freaking loud today. There’s this one dude thats been singing every freaking song they play outside. Just blurting the lyrics, ugh so obnoxious.

Foster Status Update

I’m going to foster a pup tomorrow. Super excited and nervous, I hope she likes me!

Erykah Badu Portrait

Here’s a little something I’ve been working on for a while. Can’t wait to finish her.

I’ll call it “Green Eyes”

Day 3

Seems like my odd days are my worst days…

Today I feel horrible, reality is sinking in and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.

I’m so tired of feeling hurt and this is only the beginning.

I know, this too shall pass, and that this is only making room for great things to happen in my life… yadda yadda

Right now my heart feels super heavy, I feel so lost and I’m doing my best not to turn into one big ball of mess.